I Never Learned How To Stay

For everyone who has ever felt more at home in an airport than anywhere else.

She has lived in four countries, cared for strangers as if they were family, and built a life suspended between flights, rotations, and other people's homes. A caregiver by calling, she has held a dying man's hand on her very first day of work, walked dementia patients back from the edges of themselves, and spent four years inside the guarded world of extraordinary wealth — only to find that money, like everything else, could not buy the one thing she was searching for.

*I Never Learned How to Stay* moves between raw, lyrical verse and intimate prose to tell the true story of a life spent in transit — between Germany, England, and Switzerland; between duty to her own family and devotion to the families she cared for; between the comfort of departure gates and the harder, quieter work of trying to arrive.

This is not a tidy story about finding home. It is an honest one about learning to live, fully and tenderly, in the space between leaving and staying — and discovering that peace doesn't always require an answer.

*A memoir for anyone who has ever packed a life into a suitcase, loved people who weren't technically theirs to love, and wondered, quietly, where they actually belong.*